Rat heaven & good deeds

Today I had to put my last rat to sleep :<
I noticed yesterday evening that he was very quiet and didn't eat and drink anymore, he didn't even take his rat candy anymore so I knew something was wrong, but I didn't know what to do. I put him in a separate cage and took him with me when I went to bed. I was really afraid he wouldn't get through the night. I woke up several times and kept checking if he was still alive. At 11am he was really doing bad and I just saw that he was suffering, so I decided to put him to sleep.
I had to work at 2:30pm, so I went to the vet with a taxi cause I had no other choice. Luckily the taxi driver was really friendly and he waited till I was done and brought me back home. Also, normally I had to pay a lot more to the vet because it was an emergency call, but she took the money for a normal consultation, so that was really friendly too! Those are maybe small things, but they really helped me through my day. People often complain about the bad things people do, but we should also appreciate the small and good deeds. Thanks to them I got on time for work and how sad it may sound, at least my rattie isn't suffering anymore and he's got a place in rat heaven with his brothers. I only need to find a place to bury him now.

Since I'm going to England I won't take new rats, but I already know I'm really going to miss having rats. They were the best pets I ever had! They're so adorable, sweet and loving. It's sad they don't live very long..

I want to dedicate the rest of this post to all the rats I ever had. I'm missing each and every one of you </3

Myra:

Ophelia:

Emily:

Sugar:

 

Muffin:

 

 

Lars:

 

Aro:

Kello:

  

Seeing all their faces makes me sad again :(

I will add more pictures tomorrow and work on the lay-out, cause I have no idea why some pictures aren't next to each other.

x

Beaches & birthday

Today was a lovely day, the weather was so nice! Unfortunately I couldn't enjoy it because I had to work, but feeling the sun again makes me happy. We've had a very long winter and didn't really have spring. And suddenly it's 27 degrees! Welcome to Belgium.

Weather like this makes me want to go to the beach barefoot and feel the sand between my toes.

Unfortunately there's no beach nearby and I have no time/money to go to the other side of Belgium :<
But my birthday is coming up soon, so maybe I should ask for a trip to the beach :3
Cause I really have no idea what to do! I basically have no friends to go out with, so I don't feel like throwing a party this year, except maybe with 2 people I'm closest with. I was thinking about a fairytale themed day, but because everyone has exams now I'll probably celebrate it at the end of June anyway, so maybe I'll get an idea until then. Any ideas are welcome!

Also, they're going to remove my braces next week, yay, so happy <3

What are your summer plans, if you have any? Are you guys going on holiday, if so, where? Tell me :3

xoxo

Lana Del Rey concert

So as I wrote in my previous post I went to the Lana Del Rey concert last week and I'll copy my post from tumblr:

'So yesterday I went to Lana Del Rey and it was absolutely amazing! It was at Vorst Nationaal in Brussels and I went there at 1pm to start queuing. I think there were already around 50-60 people. At 6pm the doors opened and everyone was pulling and pushing and rushing to get in, and it was kind of unfair because there were people who were there from 10am who didn’t get the front row because other people were being rude. The waiting was so stressy, but I got the second row so I was really happy about that. First there was a supporting act and they were surprisingly good! It was a band called Kassidy from Scotland. After that we waited another half an hour and then Lana came on stage and OMG she’s absolutely gorgeous & perfect ♥ She looks so much younger in real life, so much different than her pictures! She wore a green dress and aaah it was so pretty <3

The concert was just perfect <33 In the beginning I couldn’t hear her well, but after that it got better. She sang all the songs I wanted her to sing, like Cola, Gods & Monsters, Summertime Sadness, Ride & Young and Beautiful (and many more of course). I totally cried at Young and Beautiful and cried even more at Ride (because I listened to it in my bad days and it reminded me of that again). The only thing that sucked were the people. They were so rude and kept pushing and pulling, we could barely breath. A lot of people also fainted because of the heat and the crowd.

But Lana is so sweet, she came to the front row during her concert to take pictures and sign! Unfortunately I couldn’t get a picture with her, but while queuing earlier I got a signed Great Gatsby book because I was one of the first. The other ones got a vinyl record box of hers (which I’m totally jealous of), but I’m glad with what I got. At least I have her signature :3

It totally rocked and I already want to go back despite all the stupid people. Suffering from post-Lana depression now!'

xoxo

Yes, I'm still alive!

Oh gosh, I haven't written on my blog for ages. These past months I've been dragged into the world of tumblr and forgot about real life :')
A lot has happened these months, there have been good times and bad times, I don't know where to start. I'll try to take up where I left off.

So meanwhile I got totally obsessed over 'Once Upon A Time' the tv show and have been tumbling about it for months. I started watching it last year in summer, but got obsessed again after I re-watched in February.

But the biggest event that happened in my life is probably in April when I went to London. I went twice because I auditioned for 2 drama schools. It was a stressy period, but I'm glad I experienced it. The first time I went to London all by myself and stayed at a friend of a friend of my mum (haha) and I auditioned for  The International School of Screen Acting. You can read about my trip to London here and about my audition here! Here are also some pictures if you're interested: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7. The second time I went with a friend and we stayed at a hostel in New Cross. We went into London again, went to see Wicked and I auditioned for ALRA. You can read about it here and again some pictures: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7. If you read it you know that I didn't get through my audition at ALRA, but I did get through my audition at the ISSA, so basically I'm going to study in London for the next 2 years! :3 I'm really excited and scared at the same time. I'm still looking for a place to stay and everything's so expensive.. Every day is a day closer to London!

Unfortunately I also have some sad news, the 12th of May my grandfather in Turkey passed away. He was already struggling with his health for more than a year and I'm really sad that we haven't seen him since last summer.. :( My mum went to Turkey for the funeral, but we couldn't go because I had to work and my sister has school. I really hope to go to Turkey soon again to see my grandmother, but atm I'm scared to go with everything that's been going on in Turkey lately..

Some happier news is that recently it was my rat's 3th birthday! Look at my baby



Also, I went to the Lana Del Rey concert a couple of days ago! I'll make a new post about that.

I don't know if anyone's actually still reading my blog, but I'm really going to force myself to write again about stuff that's happening and I'm also going to cover some songs soon. I promise I won't disappear again!

xoxo